Tuesday, September 8, 2009

So I have decided that I am just going to pull an ostrich and bury my head in the sand until things clear up.
Friday, 20 min before I got off work, Kevin called me to tell me they had laid him off at work. Great. I really don't know how much more I can take. I am sick of bad news. I am ready for good news. I had a gray cloud hanging over me all weekend because of it.
I am trying to be hopeful. Last time he got laid off, back in Feb., he was only off for 6 days before he found another job. It's just that we can't make ends meet on my dwindling paycheck. I am talking to my boss after lunch and letting her know that they need to do something to keep me here or I am going to start looking elsewhere. You can't keep cutting my paycheck and expect me to still drive an hour to work. Help me out here. I am just tired and frustrated. It's awesome looking in your cabinets for food to make for dinner and tryng to figure out what to do with the 6 items you have. Our savings account was smashed by my medical bills-which we are still working on paying off. I just don't get how two hard working people like Kevin and I keep getting the short end of the stick?! I want a break.
My family keeps telling me that God only gives you what you can handle, but damn it, I am at my breaking point.
I have so many things I should be happy about right now, but making our house payment, having food to eat, and gas to get to work are out-weighing those positive things right now. Where is the light at the end of the tunnel because right now the batteries are dead in my flashlight.


  1. Hang in there sis! It seems like Kevin never has difficulty finding a job and is never without one for very long. If you decide to look outside your company for another position; I hope you find something good! Careerbuilder.com is usually a pretty decent job search website. I try to plan my meals in advance so I know exactly what I need at the grocery store to save money. It really shrank our grocery bill. I hope this helps!

  2. I'm really sorry to hear that Kevin was laid off. I know you have been going through tough times recently and this certainly doesn't help. You are a strong person and will definitely get through this.

  3. I'm so sorry...and I feel for ya, babe. We have been struggling for awhile now with my hubby being in and out of work and it sucks. It's hard to be positive in these situations, I completely understand that. I bury myself in books to try to escape the anxiety and fear I feel all the time about not being able to pay the bills. I know there's a light...and eventually it will get better. Things will get better cause they have to. Hang in there!

  4. You tell your boss You don't get if you don't ask. As a former manager/hirer/corporate-ladder-climber, put a positive spin on everything you say.

    First of all, see if you can wait until Kevin gets a new job. You should also look for a job. RIGHT NOW. Hold out that much so you don't make empty threats.

    Then talk about how much you LIKE your job blah blah, and ALL the things you do blah blah and do REALLY well, blah blah and say you'd like a $___ /hour raise.

    You GO grrrrl!

  5. I'm sorry. Sometimes life just sucks. But you're strong so you'll pull through. It is frustrating and exhausting, but it's not your forever life.