So this is my first blog. Interesting. I thought it may be nice to do since my sister-in-law does one. It is a nice way to stay updated.
I am currently a little sad. My younger brother, Joe, will be leaving for the army on the 20th and flying out the 21st. I was fine with it until this morning when I read his blog regarding leaving. Needless to say, it finally hit me like a ton of bricks that he is really leaving. I thought I would be ok with this since I have lived pretty much my entire life with a long distance relationship: my parents divorced when I was very young and my father has always been a ways away from me. So, basically, I thought I knew how to handle a long distance relationship. Boy was I wrong. It dawned on me that I can't just call him up to talk when I need to like I normally do. I can't call him up spur of the moment to meet for lunch when I am bored. I can't call him and ask for favors. He is going to be hours away with only written communication for quite a while. I am not so much scared, ok maybe a little bit, about what he is going to go through. I am just going to miss him being around. I am wishing now that I had spent more time with him. It makes me realize how little I really do see my brothers and that makes me sad. I am horrible about keeping in touch with people, but I have always been one of those people that can pick up right where I left off, but I forget that others aren't this way. I went through a phase where I was very distant from my family, trying to establish myself and my husband as a family, and I am still mad at myself for that. I have made a promise to myself to write Joe at least once a week while he is in boot camp. I hate how it takes someone going away to really make you appreciate them. Why does it always have to be this way?! Well, I will keep the first one short. Hopefully my next one will be more cheerful!