Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Sorry for the long delay in blogs. I live in BFE and it costs a small fortune to get the internet in the area where I live, and I refuse to wait in line behind pre-teens at the library to use the computer long enough to log on and then back off again.
My surgery went really well. It was all over very quickly and the pain wasn't horrible. I feared for no reason. I was off my pain meds by day 3 post op. My doctor is really impressed with my recovery and I am back at work 2 weeks earlier than expected. At my follow up the doc let me know how happy he was that we made the decision to treat this aggressively. The cancer had already gotten to my uterus. Now I get to go in for 3month physical exams so the doctor is going to become best friends with my female parts. Good times. It's better than the alternative though. Besides, every woman needs a good man in her life right?!
I found that daytime television sucks while I was off work: Tyra gets annoying and Maurry is just stupid...and what's with all the judge shows? I don't get it. I did re-establish my relationship with my son, my dog, bully. He loves me more than daddy now. (we are sick people and treat our dog like our son...it is a good thing we can't have children because we would say things to our child like, "Daddy doesn't love you as much as I do, he doesn't give you treats and take you for rides." We are messed up individuals.) He didn't tear up the house like I had forseen upon my return to work, which I was thankful for.
I started going to the gym again...my old, original gym from when I was 17. I'm excited and already feel better. I feel at home there and get to see my old lifting partners and an old boyfriend that gives me great motivation. I want to lose 40lbs. at least 20 by my little brother's graduation from basic training. I don't want to be the fat sister anymore...my brother lost weight, so can I, damn it! I just have to get cleared from the doc to start running...he thinks I am over-zealous, but I figure, I will know when I am doing too much, so I lift more than he has cleared me to and am back to shrugging 150lbs (I used to do 220) and benching 115 ( I used to do 145.) Squats are a different story, I am a weakling there, but did leg press 220...I was way impressed with myself, but squats are still at 60lbs. Oh well, one day I will be the lifting goddess that I used to be. I have my bikini sitting on my dresser for motivation. I only wore a bikini one summer, mainly because my mom made me feel fat most my life, when I had a kickass body. Glad I got over that one before college!
So, all in all, everything is well. I am actually better than I was before and now officially period free! Take that! Haha!


  1. welcome back! i was worried. but that's what i do...

    and i have a mom who made me feel fat too. but now she is overcompensating by saying how thin i am, which makes me feel fat. don't ask why. i have issues.

    good for you getting back at the gym! i missed you and i'm so happy to hear you are well!

  2. Thanks! I missed reading up on everyone as well...I have a lot of catch up reading to do!

  3. Haley, welcome back!! We missed seeing you on here. I'm glad to hear you're recovering well. Good for you for getting back into the gym. I wish I had your kind of motivation!

  4. Sooooo glad to have you back Sis! We've truly missed you. Congrats on the speedy recovery and new motivation! After I had Turner, it took me 4 months before I could drag myself to the treadmill and I could only walk for 15 minutes and 3 mph! SLOW process, but don't give up. I've seen you at your hottiest and you're going to turn heads. Daytime TV blows. Now you can see why I couldn't wait for my maturnity leave to end. I'm also a member of MMMMFF. (My Mom Makes Me Feel Fat) I think my Mom would be more ashamed of me if I were overweight than if I had a criminal record. ATLEAST she taught me healthy ways to keep it off. She could have just told me to starve, take a pill, smoke cigarrettes, or binge and purge. By the way, 115 lbs is the most I've ever benched in my life. I'm blonde so I do like a bajillion shoulder shrugs a day. Even though I don't put weights on, I think I've got you beat. Again, WELCOME BACK!